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Thursday, 18 January 2007

  • i AM WiLLiAM JEWELL NOW. i LOVE EVERY MiNUTE OF iT. DANCE iS GREAT. SCHOOL iS HARD BUT GREAT. i AM PACKiNG TO MOVE iNTO MY DORM NOW ACTUALLY. iTS NOT FUN BUT HEY....WHATEV. iLL WRiTE MORE LATER.

Saturday, 11 November 2006

  • i want it. i want it so bad that i can taste it. i want tcu. i want jewell. i want anything to get me out of this place. i have always said that i would never go to mu. that mu would be a waste of time for me. then abbey and i decided together that we would go to mizzou, room together, and it would be perfect. well as everyone knows, things change. and things changed soon enough to where shhe now goes to ku and i am stuck in this hell hole because i waited too long. and it sucks. mizzou is not a challenge. it is just a set back. its a waste of money. let alone it just brings me down....physically and emotionally. im stuck in a rutt right now. do i leave at semester and be happy. or do i wait until next year and just tough things out. or do i just give up on the other schools because it is going to be too expensive. i dont know. i dont know what to do at all. i just want something else. something more. it feels like all this world is ever worried about is money. materialistic matters. and it bothers me. as i can be materialistic at times also, i do not need my whole life revolved around it. but then again the things that dont revolve around money...usually need money to do. for instance dance. in order to be an amazing dancer, you have to pay for the training and  all the supplies that are needed. someone could have amazing talent and no money to back that up. just with school though too. except in my case, im so miserable and mizzou, that my grades arent going to be great so when i go to transfer...i wont get into a good school. and it sucks. really bad. and i wish i could change it but i cant and that is something i will have to deal with. oh well. i over analyze way to much. but i just want to be happy. is that too much to ask?

Monday, 30 October 2006

  • amazing. i get rent tickets and it just opens my eyes up even more. that whole musical has so many different aspects i love it. its main line is "no day but today." its about living in the moment. one song says "there is no future. there is no past. i live this mom as my last." that is how it should be. not worrying about what you didnt accomplish in the past or what you regret. not thinking about how things will be better later or what you will be doing years from now. why not make things better right now. i need to get out and start doing things now. not be so caught up in what has happeneded or hasnt happened to me. i love the people i have met here. they have helped a lot. in fact more than i could say thank you for. but i am excited to meet new people. live further from home. or if not, learn to live by myself. i will probably transfer at semester but it is ok. doesnt mean i cant make what i have better. i dont like it. and that is fine. but i at least should think positively about mizzou while i am either otherwise i am going to end up not liking it even more. ive started dance again. it is amazing like always. i got candy corn in the mail from ali. that is amazing as well. i am just so excited for everything that is going to happen. i think things are all going to fall into place. i just have to make things better right now. well i am going to go workout for a while.

Monday, 23 October 2006

  • well. here i am. almost done with first semester. at least not that much longer to go. and seriously...i just cant wait to leave. i probably wont leave for next semester. but i really want to start dance again. in fact i have to. but i dunno. i miss my family. i dont like mizzou. but whatever. no big deal. i am going to head to bed now. but i will write more later.

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